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Hello guys! I'm opening commissions for furry, pony and any other character arts really
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About body image and my art
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Hello guys, I feel like we need to talk about something important
As you may have noticed, sometimes I draw heavily underweight characters. Usually it's my fur/ponysona who is underweight by default, or characters to whom I relate in some way. It does not appear in every picture as it used to in 2014 when my art screamed eating disorder way before any doctors did. I've been hospitalised with anorexia nervosa in late 2014. I never received any proper therapy except medication though. Therefore, 5 years later, the ED is still with me.
And this is not even that important to the topic. It's just the reason behind body image in my art. Hell no to romanticising or something like that, if there is one thing in this world I am ferocious about, it's fatphobia. I know too many girls who fell victims to it. I am heavily anti-proana.
HOWEVER this does not change the way how I feel about myself, the way I operate with the world and see my art. It's just something that is there. If I start a picture and something screams for me to draw an underweight figure, I will be restless unless I do so.
What I really want to talk about is reaction to it. Seriously guys, 'give this horse a sandwitch immediately' type of comments were funny in 2014. Now, hundreds of those and 'kill it with fire'-is type later, it's just annoying.
What I wish to say is that THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO MY ART THAN JUST SKINNY BODIES. Skinny bodies are not a goal in itself, it's just the SMALL DETAIL, like how I wish the lightning to be, or the angle of the head, or how much foldings are there in the clothing on my picture. Yes it's dictated by something vile but how I wish no one really paid attention to it. When I give all of my soul and sweat for a few weeks to make a picture, when every single stroke on the picture is done with love and other emotions, it is so painful for me when the picture gets reduced to 'too skinny, ew, kill it with fire, bad drawing'.
Sometimes a body is just a body. There is no hidden message or fetishizing propaganda behind it. Seriously I've never seen similar reaction to other types of bodies on other artists's art or even my own.
Gosh this is devastating. It brings me tears and reduces me, because my art is me, to the body again, just like in real life.
Thank you for reading.
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